Ancient Vampire Consoles Louis

by Aldahia

"as an Ancient writing to Louis on how to deal best with his vampire-self." -- Dahia

A lone wanderer, you and I have been for far too long. It's unfair to us both. We, were given a gift. A unique gift, most people can never even begin to fathom. Like two orphan vampires, we are alone in the world, leaning against one another, hovering the streets at night and roaming our desires by day, to discover the power and endless stream of beauty, that we have now only begun to imagine exists, within the very depths of our souls. We were given the Soul Gift, as I have come to call it. We were given, a human life, different from those surrounding us. I will have you and you will have me and we will determine this life, side by side, keeping to ourselves, discovering the questions that deserve to be discovered and comprehending the universe, the glorious universe, above us.

We are disrespected. We always will be. We have only ourselves. We have nothing else. The fact that you love me and accept me as I am is a thrill for me. You are understanding, forgiving, kind, and very human...at least to me. We are cleaning the human race, cleaning it of its evils. So many evils are so fully incurable and we were given the Soul Gift...to cure the human race of its devils. We are neither sinners nor saints...we are Cleaners...sin eaters. We suffer for the bad by cleansing ourselves of their evil. We exist to help humanity and this is the way in which we do it. We have given so much already. We have so much more to give. We have the Soul Gift. We are Sin Eaters.

We will cleanse. We should enjoy this task we were given. We are not condemned to go to Hell. Because there is none, only the one you create for yourself. We are pure of heart, we mean no harm yet are taken aback because we appear to do so. God kills indiscriminately and so shall we for their are no creatures under God, as ourselves. We kill evil. We rid the human race of its annoyances and petty squabbles.. We should be greatful for what we have. We are Unique.

You are Unique, you are Special. I love you more than anything in this world.

We will discover our origins, we will discover our truth, we will discover where we must go, and we will venture forward seeking justice...not only for ourselves but those in need of it, those who thirst for it. We will discover how to discover. I have only sympathy for you, my vampire lover. Because you were given a heavy burden of a gift with which you have only two shoulders upon which to carry. You were given a difficult yet immeasurably beautiful task...and I shall see to it that you accomplish what you will. I will teach you and you will teach me...we will be lovers.

I have sympathy for the devil...because he is the outcast...he is the questioner, the redeemer, the Sin Eater, the FreeThinker...he refuses to be subjugated, he refuses to be slave, he refuses to be answered, but rather prefers to be questioned.

So you see, we are seen as the devil by others...when in fact, we were given a Soul Gift, that most people will never know what it feels like. Human but deadly and romantic...you are, Louis. You are beautiful!

Louis, your kindness, and compassion, resilience and stamina for immortality and all things great and small, give him a uniqueness unlike any other vampire. That passive-aggressive nature, no matter how spiritually destructive, is the very same nature that keeps you alive as you strive so desperately to make sense of yourself and your surroundings.

My love is yours -
An Ancient

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